Thinking back over just my short life, I've developed an awareness of that experience.
When I was a child i was going to Africa and be Tarzan.
It was during that period of time "when I was around 12" that I sent off for some information from AMORC "The Rosecrucians".
It was advertised in a comic book or similar type material I was reading at the time
So, in my way of thinking at the time, I received secret material from them.
(what a striking combination of animal and god qualities)
During my childhood, I thought that the coming reality would be a grand spiritual revival or becomming the happy hunting ground.
That now we would be living in a reality filled with roads and cars that made life much better.
And no hard grueling long days of working on the family farm etc..
Then later i went searching for myself through joining the Air Force.
And still finding no relief in directions to go or fulfilling my desires,-
My emotions were a tangled mess after being discharged from the AF.
And went looking for relief through finding someone to share my life with.
Still unfilled
I Went looking or seeking my fortunes through self employment or agency status
Some way to break out of an hourly wage system that seemed like a trap
I sought out ways to get ahead and make my own destiny
Seeking to know myself through continued religious studies
Shortly after joining the AF I learned about people that never ate meat.
That it wasn't necessary like i had learned in health class in school.
And much later, "after futher study" became a vegetarian.
Attending club meeting it seemed like the movement was gaining momentum and thought by now the shift away from meat would be firmly in place.
This involvement prompted me to get involved in the seria club to set aside land to preserve our future
Later I became involved in spirituality in such a way that i thought the present day reality would have shed its materialistic bondage by now
EVEN THOUGH I DID GO TO AFRICA
IN SPITE OF MY LOVE OF NATURE AND HUNTING A FISHING I NEVER BECAME TARZAN
AND PEOPLE ARE EATING MORE MEAT NOW THAN EVER
MATERIALISM IS RUNING RAMPID AND THREATENDING TO FINISH SUCKING THE SPIRIT RIGHT OUR OF US
Instead of roads and cars being a solution to our problems,-
they created modern day conditions of increasing stress and strain
A SYSTEM THAT COULD BE CALLED OUR MODERN DAY SLAUGHTERHOUSE
in a way, almost everything is worse than it was during my childhood.
NOTHING TURNED OUT BETTER
and reflectging on how things have went the furure looks even bleaker
It seems like the only saving grace is we haven't annihilated ourselve already
AND IT LOOKS LIKE THE HARDER PEOPLE ARE PRAYING FOR PEACE THE MORE WARLIKE ACTIONS ARE TAKEN
The do gooders actions aren't doing any good
THE BETTER WORLD I THOUGHT WE WOULD BE LIVING IN TODAY IS WORSENING
TO SHORTEN THIS EXTREMELY LONG STORY AND GET TO THE POINT
EVERYHING I THOUGHT OF AS BEING BETTER TODAY IS A MESS
And even if i disagreed, by letting someone else take the lead-
I WAS A CONTRIBUTOR
BUT NO MORE WILL I ROLL OVER AND PLAY ALONG WITH THE WAY OF THE WARMONGERING FOOLS
AND THOSE IGNORNANT TO WHAT THEIR GREEDY NEEDS AND SELFISH SELF CENTERED MOTIVES OF THOSE CAUGHT UP IN MATERIALISM
You have to disavow yourself of anything to do with it in order to make the difference needed now.
LIKE, I'M MAD AS HELL AND I'M NOT GOING TO TAKE IT ANY MORE
As a footnote
While things are so much worse it could lead to our self destruction
Things are also better
In fact so much better that we now have a base to work from to move us out of the old base
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HEAVEN ON EARTH ????????